Lyric A Chapter Of Accidents

I swear to God the sun is laughing at me,
but I can t say because I don t look straight at it.
Hear me out.
Those boys tell all the lies that roll right past you:
"I don t wanna fuck you, I just wanna hold you."
Hear me out.
I ve searched my conscience.
Done laps thinking, like the ice capades and roller rinks.
Will I know if I still care?
I can t make up my mind.
I ll burn those bridges to the ground to tie you up and drag you down.
Give in to all subtle charms, spend summer nights in your arms.
If I drowned in deeper oceans and sink, would you be better off than me?
I d do anything to find you.
It s springtime and I feel like I m dying while everybody s got a new lease on life.
Hear me out.
It s the time of year that rolls right past me.
Just days to deadline.
I know you can t wait to leave.
What do I waste my time for?
You ve been gone for some time.
Could I set out to find you?
I m fucked because you re my vice.
But maybe I m that type of guy, because I might be.
I know this year s been miserable.
I have faith the end is beautiful.
It s just the road to get to you that s hard.