Lyric The Pool

The room s new carpet,
and the walls apartment hue add to the visitor feeling I m used to.
The morning window s freezing from outside. It wakes me up.
Wasting air to the falling light.

Angel, you picked me up but the devil wants me too.
I never gave a fuck, so why should you?

I awoke in a fog with an ache, at a loss.
You were faking through relationships to rot.
This is not my home anymore.

All my accomplishments are joined with asterisks,
so in a few years they re meaningless.

Darling, I can t erase it, but could you forget my lies?
We were the slut and the self-made mess.
Please know I tried.

Smile, smile.
Smile for all.
I can t smile anymore.

I skip rocks to mock the clashing tide.
It s encroaching on our side.
The wave parade is drowning me out too.
It breaks me up.
Wish I could have done more to you.
They used your body up, leaving your guts dry.
But you never gave a fuck so why the fuck should I?

Now the face escapes me, but the shame s forever.
When I get the nerve to test the death for life renewal,
you ll find me lying at the bottom of the pool.
And when I m face down in that water, don t pick me up.
Cause I ll be face down in that water next to you.
It will be better underwater.
Don t pick me up.