Lyric Holding Back

Seems like I have to change my life
It s on my shoulders today
But how can I go about my change
when I m used to my old ways?

For awhile I could hide
Pretend that nothing bothered me
I thought that would make it better
But I can t hide forever

What do you expect from me?
I m not trying to hold back
I ve heard this all before
After all that I ve said,
You don t understand me
Just don t take it personally

I m insecure playing love s games
My past relationships to blame
Still I can t just stand aside
Watching life passing me by
Absorbing every word you said

I know it s not what you had planned
I hope one day you ll understand