Lyric Salva Mea

How can I change the world if I can t even change myself?
I cannot change the way I am?
I don t know, I don t know.
I take a look at the world behind these eyes,
Every nook, every cranny reorganize,
Realize my face don t fit the way I feel.
What s real?
I need a mirror to check my face is in place,
Incase of upheaval, fundamental movement below,
What s really going on I want to know,
But yo, we don t show on the outside, so slide.
Just below my skin I m screaming...
I need a mirror for my spirit,
Yeah, can you feel it?
When I get deep, want to hear myself sleep,
Not drowning, tumbling around and around in the voices
Like a crowd in my head so loud,
I wonder what it s like to be dead,
I hope it s quiet, noise in my head like a riot,
Any remedy you have for me I ll try it.
Just below my skin I m screaming...
I m going deep, so deep that I can t sleep,
The pills ain t cheep but the bills are steep,
So I [?] with a booze and a spiff,
Try to snooze,
But who s dreaming, this is win or loose,
Put down the drink, try not to think,
Let it go, fundamental movement below,
And yo, reality is dreaming,
Just below my skin I m screaming...