Lyric Going Under

Is it wrong to talk to myself even when there s nobody else?
I m just checking out that I m not gone under the water
Thrown on the beach like a seal ready for slaughter
Can t you understand that the way things were planned
It never worked out so I just went crazy
I took to the drink, like something says "it s maybe"

I ain t got no excuse and that s really the news
Got nothing else to say, that it s my way, it s always my way
I seem to be running away so often
I ll try anything once and that s the way we should be
But it s always the same getting caught up again in a habit,
A habit I just can t shake off
The way it always turned out
Can you understand it s the way I choose to be
Everything seems so easy this way but I m going under fast,
Slipping away, am I so crazy?