Lyric Undefeated

I ve been at odd s with a restless soul
I ve felt the pain whenI lost control
I said the words but could not explain
The hurt fades but the scars remain

Got myself into situations
Ignored the threats and ministrations
Guilt choked by my last breath
I scared myself to death

So take my tears take all my fucking pain
I hope you re entertained

I fell prey to my own theatrics
Been diagnosed by the psychiatrics
Mistakes that i have made
I ve left myself betrayed

I ve lied to those i love
I d medicate but there s never enough
No tears for the lives I ve wrecked
I ve lost my self respect

And now I m reaching back
And I m trying to make things right
And through my past I ve gained a deeper sight
I m less than proud of what I ve done
But I know I ve got to change
Somehow I know it s only just begun
Begun to change it s all on me
There s no one else to take the blame
But I m still caught up in this game