Lyric Language Or The Kiss

I don t know if it was real or in a dream lately waking up i m not sure where i ve been there was a table set for six and five were there i stood outside and kept my eyes upon that empty chair and there was steam on the windows from the kitchen laughter like a language i once spoke with ease but i m made mute by the virtue of decision i choose most of your life goes on without me oh the fear i ve known that i might reap the praise of strangers and end up on my own all i ve sown was a song but maybe i was wrong i said to you the one gift which i d adore unwrap a package of the next 10 years unfolding but you told me if i had my way i d be bored right then i knew i loved you best born of your scolding when we last talked we were lying on our backs looking up at the sky through the ceiling i used to lie like that alone out on the driveway trying to read the greek upon the stars the alphabet of feeling oh i knew back then it was a calling that said if joy then pain the sound of the voice these years later is
still the same i am alone in a hotel room tonight i squeeze the sky out but there s not a star appears begin my studies with this paper and this pencil and i m working through the grammar of my fears mercy what i won t give to have the things that mean the most not to mean the things i miss unforgiving the choice still is the language or the kiss