Lyric I m Trying

(Darrell Scott/Tia Sillers)

She said I m not pointing fingers
And he said yes you are
Cause you wouldn t bring it up if you weren t
If I told you I d been walking
Out in the dark night thinking
Would you take as truth this alcholoics word?
I can t change what s done is done
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don t curse myself and all my sins
And I need you to hold on to while this part of me is dying
Though I haven t kicked the demons that haunt me
I m trying
I m trying

She sat down on the floor
And said I wish I was stronger
Right now I feel fragile as glass
I want to believe you
Believe what s held you has freed you
And I hate these doubts that keep on coming back
My parents think I m crazy for staying here this long
But there s nothing more I want for us than to prove to them they re wrong
I don t want to be afraid, I don t want to think you re lying
And though I haven t found the faith yet, that I need
I m trying
Oh, I m trying

He asked, do you want me to leave?
Cause if you do, you know I will
But she said, much to his disbelief
No, I love you still

He said I don t know why I ve been the fool
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don t curse myself and all my sins
Then he dropped down to his knees, by now they both were crying
Said, I haven t been the man I want to be
But, I m trying
Oh,I m trying
I m trying
Oh Lord, I m trying