Lyric Holding Back The Tears

I kind of keep asking myself little questions
Like where do I go from here
I seem to keep loosing track of time and how long it s been
Since I last had you near

Been a painful road to a door that s closed
Been a gamble that I knew I couldn t win
Been a lonely conversation to this photograph of you
In the mirror there s a sing I must give in

So I m not holding back the tears anymore
tryin escape the heartache, tryin escape emotion
No I m not holding back the tears anymore
Yesterday s my memory reminding me of all the time
I depended on you

I used to enjoy spending my time on my own here
Watching the jaded people pass
Now here I am sharing their pain and their lonely tears
And walking a road of broken glass

It s a constant fight to get through each day and night
It s a war between the present and the past
And the face that s in your mind every time you close your eyes
What s the reason, what s the answer, how long will this last

So I m not holding back the tears anymore
tryin escape the heartache, tryin escape emotion
No I m not holding back the tears anymore
Yesterday s my memory reminding me of all the time

Been a long time since I heard your last goobdye
Still I hear it clearly every day and night
What s the point in love when you have to give it up
Yet still you need it and it s nowhere you can find

So I m not holding back the tears anymore
tryin escape the heartache, tryin escape emotion
No I m not holding back the tears anymore
Yesterday s my memory reminding me of all the time
I depended on you